You know those moments in life where it all catches up with you? Where you look at your load and say okay Lord I have more than I can take so from here on out it's all you. Well that is at least the way I talk to my God. He loves me for my realness.
These kinds of moments seem to be happening to me a lot lately. Trials up the wazoo. Some harder than others. Some short and some that like to linger. As you go through more trials in your life you find perspective is key. "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance." James 1:2-3. Since I was shown this verse in my early twenties I have decided that I will celebrate in my trials. What does this mean? Well I'm not a fan of trials themselves and I don't really enjoy them in the moment. To be real I forget this verse sometimes when I am walking through something hard. It isn't the trial I love moreso the end product. I enjoy the lessons I have learned through the journies of each trial. I enjoy being entrusted with the wisdom that I gain and being able to share that with others. "Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize."1 Corinthians 9:24. This life is hard but to be able to say to Yaweh on the day He calls us home "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith." 2 Timothy 4:7 means everything.
So I keep perspective living by the love letter God has sent me. Asking for and keeping in continuous prayer, keeping community close as I walk through these things and studying His infallible word.
For moments like this where my load is too much I empty it onto the thrown of grace. I surrender and submit it until Jesus and wait for wisdom, discernment and an answer. In the mean time I find things to lighten the load, find things to laugh about and things to distract. I'm off to find something right now don't know what it is but God does ...
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