Are you adopted?
Wandering through a world of unknowns
Is this really it? All there is?
A place to call home, a name
I want, so I take
When I have used it up, away with you
Consumer thoughts, consumer practices, yet...
A desire
So unmet by everything that a little piece breaks off of you
More pieces
Is this all there is?
A parent waiting to hold their baby boy that they just adopted
They've waited ten years for him
A child waiting for their mother or father to come home from war
It's been two long painful years and counting
That's how I wait for you
With longing, with eagerness
I look down watching your thoughts, your practices
I see you on the cusp.
You move left when I wanted you to move right
But I wont stop you
I will just have to wait
Longer...
For you.
Child,
You were crying last night
Crying to me
I so badly wanted to wipe away your tears, yet you met your lips with the bottle
You shot up to feel the release
You picked up the phone and away you went to euphoria
Me in the background
Again
To wait.
My heart ached for you because I know the inner torture you feel.
I know.
The love you desire, the belonging
I know and yet I sit here waiting...
For you.
You can't take it anymore
This life is too much
So you to ways to find relief, yet find none
You are met by emptiness that is still there in the morning
When you leave their beds
When you are greeted with the throbbing pain
When you come back down
Feelings are the same, nothing has changed
An empty hole so great that I wait for it to swallow me up
Frustration mixed with hurt met with fear and a twist of pride
A concoction for a deadly disaster
This is the crown I bear every day
Shame falls on me, no breath to catch
I can't take this anymore
I don't want to do this.
The choice...
Either die and see what else is on the other side of this life
Or find truth
Which will it be?
As I sit contemplating these I am met with a nudge
I'm still here
I never went anywhere
I've been waiting for you
All you have to do is ask
I love you.
I have always loved you
Didn't you know that I always have?
Until you are ready, I will wait
Until you ask, I will watch
For you.
Wandering through a world of unknowns
Is this really it? All there is?
A place to call home, a name
I want, so I take
When I have used it up, away with you
Consumer thoughts, consumer practices, yet...
A desire
So unmet by everything that a little piece breaks off of you
More pieces
Is this all there is?
A parent waiting to hold their baby boy that they just adopted
They've waited ten years for him
A child waiting for their mother or father to come home from war
It's been two long painful years and counting
That's how I wait for you
With longing, with eagerness
I look down watching your thoughts, your practices
I see you on the cusp.
You move left when I wanted you to move right
But I wont stop you
I will just have to wait
Longer...
For you.
Child,
You were crying last night
Crying to me
I so badly wanted to wipe away your tears, yet you met your lips with the bottle
You shot up to feel the release
You picked up the phone and away you went to euphoria
Me in the background
Again
To wait.
My heart ached for you because I know the inner torture you feel.
I know.
The love you desire, the belonging
I know and yet I sit here waiting...
For you.
You can't take it anymore
This life is too much
So you to ways to find relief, yet find none
You are met by emptiness that is still there in the morning
When you leave their beds
When you are greeted with the throbbing pain
When you come back down
Feelings are the same, nothing has changed
An empty hole so great that I wait for it to swallow me up
Frustration mixed with hurt met with fear and a twist of pride
A concoction for a deadly disaster
This is the crown I bear every day
Shame falls on me, no breath to catch
I can't take this anymore
I don't want to do this.
The choice...
Either die and see what else is on the other side of this life
Or find truth
Which will it be?
As I sit contemplating these I am met with a nudge
I'm still here
I never went anywhere
I've been waiting for you
All you have to do is ask
I love you.
I have always loved you
Didn't you know that I always have?
Until you are ready, I will wait
Until you ask, I will watch
For you.
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